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Moved

2008-02-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

Moving out t elsewhere! =)

Another boring day...

2007-11-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

I miss jap & western food..!

everyday lunch eat all those coffeeshops & hawkers till i cannot tk it anymore..

I dont really lk yellow noodles & tt left me w quite a limited choice..

Go back home, same chinese food again..

Dreadddd..

Gonna abandon this blog for awhile..

Realised most of the things here r quite bo liao..

I cant blog what I really want t say..

Hv t restrict here n there..

Maybe gonna create another private blog for my own..

It's friday sooooon! =D

But it's my duty this sat =(

cough cough cough

2007-11-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm. I still think coughing is better than a running nose eh.
nt so disgusting.
wont waste tissue.

Booyyy

2007-11-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

Finally took MC after feeling sick for almost a wk.
Think it's the flu vaccination I took last wk. It made most ppl in the company sick too.

Awww.
I miss my friends..
It's lk everybody's bz w their things. N me being lazy after work.
& Lyl coming back sooonnn..

Alright. Gonna bath.
Ling ling faster come back let the poor sickly me bully! ^^

fuckingupset

2007-11-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

Past 1 wk hasn't been smooth for me..
Wallet lost..
Slippers lost..
Quarrels here n there..
Work problems..
Money..
Hv t remake all my cards..

Broke dwn. I'm really tired.
Hopefully all these stupid shit will end soon ..
And start everything again-

-The weak never forgives-

2007-11-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

I dont want t b the weak.

But now, everything just pisses me off.

=) Strong

Super random

2007-10-14T15:14:00.000+08:00

Grumpy sunday afternoon.
Woke up by bro t buy breakfast for him.
He's getting demanding nwadays.
To think I can slp more today t replenish my energy.

Shoulders aching. Tsk.

Surfing the net. Listening t 933.
Heard this song - 爱你躲你 by 陈晓东
越想爱你，越想躲你~~~ aww
He's my idol in sec sch days! hahahaha.
I dont know why also. Maybe I'm attracted t his 虎牙 or smth.
I think guys w 虎牙 / dimple are kinda cute. And he has a baby face! =D
But he's not popular anymore after hmms.. when I'm in sec 4? =(

Alright. Anw, I kept having flu nwadays. The office ppl arnd my area just hv t b so inconsiderate. They were complaining tt it's so warm, fanning themselves w paper & lowering the temperature of the air con. And I'm shivering and sneezing all over. Old ppl body temperature higher huh? Then I'll hv t keep gg t the toilet t blow it out. Or drink the mucus whole day. Yucks but bo bian, I dont really know hw t blow my nose properly. It made my ears stuck after blowing.

I dont know if I can get t study next yr anot.
Found out SIM cant use cpf t deduct.
My hongbao $$ since young were gone.
Spent them on my computers, sch stuffs & bills last time.
Damn. Was thinking t use my savings nw for driving. But having 2nd tots. =(
Maybe, I really did spend too much on shopping every month? But dont have wad. I tried t b kiam alr. I've so many things in mind. =(

O lala o lala. It's the month of oct. 1/2 a yr since I joined the company. Just wait another 1/2yr.

Friends

2007-10-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feel so low and useless..

Low paying job which lead t nowhere..

Gathering w the "so called" poly close friends last fri..

They were lk comparing each other's job & trying t make as if they are v impt in the company w many many responsibilities..

And, I'm being "looked dwn" on..

Jurong = Industrial / Factory places???

Friday wear casual = Lousy company???

Raffles / City area = 前途很光明阿？

Friends putting themselves high up in the air, looking dwn on you, using you in order t get discounts...

=) gd night

Habitat for Humanity 20 Sept 07 to 22 Sept 07

2007-09-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm back!!

My hair is dropping way too much.
And it doesnt seems like it's growing any new ones..
I'm getting worried now.
The holes are getting biggerrr..
-Screaming for help desperately!-
Anybody have any remedy or smth?
I want back my hair!

During this time last wk, I was happily enjoying my dinner in Batam.
Awww. I miss Batam man!
Really enjoyed myself despite all the body aches and those small scars (the grass are really sharp that it can cut).
And of cos, a gd tan! The sun was GD those 3 days and thus resulted in sunburnt scalp (damn! nt much hair to cover my scalp =/). I'm like the only one suffering from sunburnt scalp. haha. The others hav sunburnt ears and so on.. I downed 7-8 bottles of 600ml during the day and still no urine till i reached the hotel in the evening. Amazing right. You can imagine how hot it is and maybe the water was let out through perspiration.
The group were fantastic. Got to know more ppl in my office from different depts. Which is great! (BOO to tt petty guy =p)
The food there wasnt tt nice but surprisingly, I came back having a bigger tummy than b4! =( Maybe had v big portions for every meal.
I would love t go again if I've the chance to!
(to think I was so reluctant t go there in the 1st place. hehehe)

Pictures!

My roommate! we pei yang our gan qing 1st. haha. 1st day. 6.20am?

Group photo. At harbour front.

7.13am. Proceed to the ferry terminal!
In the ferry.. Toot Toot Toot..

Outside the Resort . Pasted this t welcome us.
Pretty pretty resort..

The 1st day when we reached tt place..Before start work..

The place where the hse shld b..
I forgt what is the hole for. But anyway, after digging this, my whole body was aching so badly at night. Need a lot of strength & considering we only have 4 guys in the group.
He has lots of amazing things in his bag. haha

Day 3. The girls in the team. Near the resort.

End of the trip!

Too lazy t post the things we did. So many pictures. And damn lag! Craziness.

Blanga Worker

2007-09-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

Having a really bad flu today.
Popped 3 pills alr
Now feeling v gong..
Slping soon...
Gotta wake up at 430am tml.
Taking the 1st train to harbour front..
Sigh.... Dreaddddddddd

-Off t b a construction worker in Batam for the next 3 days.

Miss me pls!

It's FRIDAY!!!

2007-09-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Wooo!!

It's FRIDAY in 1 hr time!

Cant wait for wkends. So that I can slp more!

-slp slp slp slp slp slp slp slp

fked up

2007-09-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

feeling lk a shit..
hope everything will b gd tml..
im so damn worried nw..

money issue too..
it's lk the beginning of the month & i've overspent way too much..
i dont know if there's enuff t last me for the rest of the wks nt..

im so stressed up over tml..
feel lk crying..
damn.. useless..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. wth.....

Apologies

2007-09-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

Been neglecting a number of friends lately.
I'm so sorry.
As a result, lost touched w them or they msged saying tt I've forgotten them. =/

I'll try t get back t u all again if I've the time! Maybe a dinner or smth wil b gd =)

Tired-

2007-08-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

It's Thursday!

The other day, went t Clementi t have my lunch. While waiting for the traffic light t turn green, my colleagues took out an umbrella t shelter themselves from the sun. I was enjoying the warmth (I love the sun!) and suddenly, I found myself in a shade. This swt old lady beside me stood closer t me so that she could shelter me too. So cute. Quietly bring her umbrella closer t me. haha. I was like telling her it's ok. But she insist to. haha. So she sheltered me t the other side of the road. Aww. So kind hearted. Made my day!

I'm being "psycho ed" t go t Batam on 20-22 Sept t build house! Gosh gosh gosh. I'm having 2nd thoughts nw. What if I cant cope or anything... What if my menses come.. What if.. Aww..

Gonna work this Saturday. Kinda scary t go on Sat. Nobody in the whole office. Empty. The machine sounds.. And I tend t think a lot. Aw man.. Oh. Gonna bring my barangs barangs on Saturday. Since no1 is around. lol

11plus alr! Im gonna slp

"Ba Kar"

2007-08-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

New heels.
OUCHHHHH.
Skin peeling.
Pasted 5-6 plasters on my poor feet but still, they came loose eventually.
Was like limping abt, cursing & swearing in my head with every step I took just now.
Ahhhhh!

I'm so angry w tt guy still!

Nights!

Oh, HAPPY "18th" BDAY PW! hehehe

Not a gentleman//

2007-08-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

My workplace has the pettiest guy ever.
Seriously, I nv meet some1 so ungentlemanly b4.
Pissed me off so much.
Gah.

Anw, IT'S WKENDS!

I'm turning in nw..

+++

2007-08-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

I've my own life, my own things t do.
I go where I want t go, who I want t b w.
I dont like t do things t suit ppl.
What are you.
I dont even consider you as my friend
Just one of colleagues

And,
It really sucks t b you

The almighty lizard vs the cockroach

2007-08-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

There's 1 lizard staying in the hole between the kitchen's wall & window grill.
Everytime when the lights are off, it will crawl out of his hiding place n go to the kitchen's bin t find food.
There's 2 of them actually. But my dad caught 1 using a double sided tape and threw him dwn.
But I tot lizard eat flies? Mine eat our leftovers. So this survivor nw is lk damn big.
Arnd 10cm long? Big & fat. Yucks

This morning, woke up and wanted t boil some water. Saw this medium size cockroach at the sink area. (I made it sounds lk my hse is v dirty. But no la. 3rd storey. Those creatures tend t climb up n camp here) Then yar. Woke my mum up but she's too lazy t help me catch.
So yea, stood there while waiting for my water, & stared at the cockroach in case it crawled towards me.
Then suddenly, the big lizard crawled out from the hole at a super fast speed and bite the cockroach away!
Wah lau, can you imagine hw mighty tt lizard is?
It can even eat cockroach.
Wah. I'm damn disgusted by the sight.

I shld tk a picture of the lizard and post it up someday.

Nights!

Updating...

2007-08-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

Life's pretty mundane these days..
Work work work..
I'm kinda bored of it alr.
But what can I do..
Guess I've t save as much as I could t get things done..
My driving license, my studies..
Next yr..
Hopefully I could get my driving license..
Haven even start tking the lessons yet though..
Gonna learn as a private student.. cheaper.. & flexible
Find another promising & high paying job after 1 yr or so
And hopefully, start studying by next yr
Let's see..

Anw, I spent my free time at work reading my fren's blog..
abt 3 yrs of his life..
from a poly yr 2 to ns..
from the seems like play flirt teen..
to the faithful & matured guy.. deeply hurt by a failed relationship..
It's pretty interesting t see hw the person grow..
in terms of the thinkings.. & the way he talks..
And a pretty gd way to spend my time when there's nth t do at work! =)
All in all, I spent lk 4 or so hrs reading finish those archives..
I think i shld start reading my own stories next time..
See what m I like last time..
Mayb I'll laugh at myself

Colleagues said I look lk 23yrs old.
Do I looked tt old?
They were pretty shocked when I told them I haven reach 20 yet. =)

Alright. Till then I blog again.
So long & goodbye

Oh btw, Happy Birthday Jasmine!

Old man's fav mrt pose

2007-08-02T20:09:00.000+08:00

Dont understand why those ah peks like to hold the top of the bar in the train to balance themselves. Cool their armpits? Air ventilation? There's nt a lot of ppl holding onto the bar lo. After work, the train from Jurong is like damn packed. Squeezed w all those ppl. Shorter ppl like me have t endure tt "wonderful bawu". Whenever I turn my head, I'm being welcomed by those ah pek's armpit. Wa lau eh. Damn disgusted.

Speaking of short, had a Health test yesterday at my company. Gosh. I shrinked by like 3-4cm, heavier by ___kgs & my blood pressure was abv the border line! My blood pressure was alright all along n was pretty shocked by it lar. My blood sugar was quite alright. So everybody was complaining abt the weight gained after the test, n we concluded tt it was nt accurate! (cant accept the fact n so, blame the machine!) Wuahaha. Actually it is quite true la huh, esp when we did the test right after our lunch, everything is like nt tt accurate alr.

Oh! Pls bless me w a gd sunny weather on Saturday! I'm becoming a fair pig nw..

Off for shower.. Till then.

臭女人

2007-07-16T19:02:00.000+08:00

心机真重

他妈的

June coming t an end....

2007-06-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

Dread waking up early on a Saturday morning.. esp FOR WORK DUTY
Been grumbling abt it for days when I knew I have t come back for duty this wk.
TSK!

Been complaining abt work for the recent entries. It's getting bored in here. Shall upload some pictures next tme!

Aww.. Nice cold weather. Makes melia slpy..

Off t bed.

Pay day Pay day!!

2007-06-23T14:12:00.000+08:00

Stayed back till 9pm yest.
I'm so gonna claim the OT money once my probation period is over.

I want t go shoppinggggg!

Jumper!
Tube Dress!
Bikini!
Skirts!
Tops!
Heels!
Nike shoes!
Bag!

Shall drag my ling ling to town later. Muahaha.

＊是我的　朋友　就是　我的baby
　就算你　打我　踢我　也都ok
　就是要　寵你　寵你　寵上了天
　天堂　整個　搬到你身邊＊

I'm hot

2007-06-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

Argh
Fever still haven subsidize

And I'm gg back t work tml..
Cant afford t tk another MC..

Pls recover by tonight...

39.6 deg cel

2007-06-19T10:35:00.000+08:00

Highest fever ever.
MC for 2 days.
Feeling horrible.
Sigh.

Ahwoo Ahwoo Friday

2007-06-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

The woman I'm under w for the past 2 months left the company abruptly (due to severe injuries from all the shootings?) after her 1 wk break. =( I like her. The way she handles stuffs & the way she teaches me. Sigh. And my probation. I tot she will give gd comments abt me n hopefully my pay will increase a lil more. Ahh . I wonder who's gg t judge my performance now.

Haven been weighing myself for wks.
Eating outside food almost everyday.
And shucks! I gained a few kilos! =/
Time t control my diet n eat more homecooked food!

Kays. I'm tired. Off t bed. Nights..

DARN

2007-06-11T19:43:00.000+08:00

WTF WTF.

ALWAYS USE MONEY T WEIGH ME DWN

N WHO U THINK U R T SLAP ME

SHIT YOU

FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

I'm a lil moody today

2007-06-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

The title says it all.

Friday the OT day is here again.

Good Night.

Ahhhh.. Sentosa..

2007-06-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

Went sentosa yest.
Been months since I last went there.
Awwwww.
The sun. The tanned ppl.
Playing monkey in the water. N dodgeball.

Love the rosy cheeks of mine nw. But hope I wont shed in a few days time =/

I love i love sentosa. <3

I'm tired. Shant go into details. nights.

Random

2007-06-02T14:17:00.000+08:00

It's a Saturday.
Feeling slpy even though I had a long rest.

Shagged. Yesterday's not the day.

Anw, got t meet the girls after work yest.
Was practically stoning while listening t Ellice's adventure story. Haha.
Cos I only slept 4hrs the night b4 n was damn tired after the day's work.
Mind's nt working.
Hmm.. Anw, gd luck for your application yea Ellice san. =D

Qianny saw me in Ajisen last night. Ho. You didnt say Hi! haha.

I just started working for like 1 month plus. And now my aunt is like trying t get me buy insurance. Oh. Wth. When I was young, she tried t get me in church. Now the insurance thing. Such a nuisance.

I'm wondering why..
there's ppl who can do anything t achieve their motives.

There's a poly class outing tml at Sentosa! Ahh. Sentosa. Sentosa. Babes n Hunks. And suntan!!! Been months since I last tanned. I'm thinking of trying the indoor tanning someday!

I'm gg back t my bed now. Yawns.

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

GST Offset Package

2007-05-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

Furious.
Upset.
Disappointed.

ROAR!

Wah lau!! My friends abv 21 kept showing off t me abt this.

I cant get it next year too! Cos my bday at the end of year.

I ONLY can get it on 2009! AHHH.

This is not fair. I also got buy things what. Why only age 21 n abv can get?

BOO!

Was happily shopping around till I was being reminded that I have work tml. I tot today's a Saturday. Aww. Such a spoiler.

Bye. Off lights. Hug the bolster.

7.10am

2007-05-30T07:10:00.000+08:00

I'm slpy. I'm slpy. I'm slpy.

-munching on my bread-

Love the smell of shokubutsu anti baterial shower cream. Makes me feel so clean.

feel so clean. feel so clean.

I'm slpy. I'm slpy. I'm slpy.

Cant wait for tml.

Off t work.

I.....

2007-05-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

...have the urge to cut hair short,
but I dont have the courage t do so..

...feel like an idiot now,
but what can I do..

...want t do/buy a lot of things,
but I dont have the money...

...feel hurt, messed up inside,
but this is what I deserved...

Life's like that. Once you did smth wrong, it's difficult t turn back.

Alright. Restricted.
I cant write abt how I feel in this blog.

Hey Hey Yo Yo! Monday's coming t an end!

We nv seem t b contented w what we have.

Sunday

2007-05-27T17:25:00.000+08:00

Lazy lazy sunday.
Dont think I'll be gg out later.
Feeling so slpy n tired.
Weather's freaking hot.

Went out t meet my polymates last night.
Last minute outing.
Seldom hang out w this group of ppl.
We're like so different from last time.
Some working part time then gg NS.
Almost everyone in my class found a job.
Some wanted to study part time, get a degree.
Now our topic's mostly about work, our company.
Feel like a young adult alr.
Sigh. I miss studying. Where I can skipped lessons if I dont feel like waking up early, where I can daydream in class, thinking what t have for lunch.
Now I dont even dare t take a MC when I have fever or feeling sick. I just pop on my panadols or flu med t survive in there.

Gave my parents some money last friday. It's my first time giving them money. Dad was like so touched. Kept talking abt it. Haha. Anw, I dont know where my money goes to. I always seem t be so broke at the end of the month. The transport? Food? Ahh. Whatever. I must scrimp n save this month. But.. it's the GSS! Ahhh. Maybe scrimp and spend at all the stuffs at the end of the month? Ahh. So tempting t buy things.

Gonna start work tml.
I wonder if I did anything wrong on Friday.
I practically rushed all the work in order to catch the company's bus tt day.
Now I'm getting worried.

Ahh. Thurs a public hols! Horray..

Oh Qianny. I've got the "Would you be there" song alr. Send you when you're online. Faster online! =D

I would give up everything

Before I'd separate myself from you

After so much suffering

I've finally found unvarnished truth

I was all by myself for the longest time

So cold inside

And the hurt from the heart it would not subside

I felt like dying

Until you saved my life

Melia is unwell

2007-05-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

I'm sick again.
Flu which leads t fever.
I'm getting weaker...

Being blamed at work.
It's partially my fault I admit.
But u guys shld check when I passed it t u.
I/o, all were rushing t go home.
Sigh.

It's friday again. I'm prepared t stay back. Friday's always a spoiler.

Dont feel good. Not at all

Melia needs a hug.

Grad Day

2007-05-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Took full day leave today.

So, since there's no need t wake up early today, met up w jas t amk kbox last night.
Sang our hearts out till 2am. Shiok. =)
Bought my yakult, stole her food, n cabbed t my hse.
Changed, chatted w her awhile, n i fell aslp. She stayed up the whole night n refused t lie on my bed =/

Woke up arnd 9plus. Bathed. Changed. Thanks Pika for lending me the white blouse =)

Parents not gg for the Grad seminar. So took picture w them at home. Hahahaha. Haiya, nv wear b4 wad.

Reached sch late. Put on tt attire. Get seated. Listen t all the speech. Went up stage.
Than tadah! Picture time!

Wendyyyyyy! Same grad day. Hehehe. I looked shag n my fringe's like crap today =/

Hahaha. 4 priests

See Yong, CaiXia, Siti, Vansantha
I love this pic. =)
Stephen, Jia Long, Helmy, Vivian

See Yong & Sonia =D
Jason , SY, Eddie, Cx, Ww

Asri! u came late =(

Tt's abt it. I'm too lazy t continue. Tml gonna wake up early & start work again! Grrr! I'm tired. Nights!

I'm counting down t payday. payday payday payday payday payday payday. I'm super broke nw. broke broke broke broke broke broke

Wkends

2007-05-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

Friday seems t b my OT day.
My vessels sunday come.
Have t finish everything by friday
My knock off time depends on HK n Jap ppl.
Tsk

Though it's quite siannnn t OT on Friday, but smth made my day during lunch! =D

I'm sorry. Didnt mean to. =)

2007-05-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

Office Politics

2007-05-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yes.
Dont shoot me pls.

I'm extremely exhausted.
Off t bed.
Nights world.

Wkends..

2007-05-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

are here once again!

It's a FRIDAY today.
But I stayed back till 8pm.
There's so many discrepancies in my cntrs.
Grrs.
No more company bus.
Had t cross the road n tk the bus hm.
Dark & quiet. =/

It's been a month.
But I'm still nt quite used t working life.
Mayb, I've t turn in earlier next time.
Not enough slp makes me grumpy almost everyday.

I want t have a lasik operation!
It's so uncomfortable wearing lenses sometimes.
Esp in the office.
Dry. Have difficulty looking at the com. I find the office too bright for my eyes.
N my lenses' w/o astigmatism.
But tt will b like after I got my driving license?
Sigh.
So many things t save up for!

I kinda master the skill t slp in the train.
Hahaha.
I dont usually fall aslp outside.
Even on my own bed, I'll have t wait for awhile b4 I can slp.
But now, it's different!
Guess I'm still nt used t having t wake up so early everyday.

Saw a heavily pregnant lady on the train today.
She looked tired.
The guys sitting infront of her were like pretending t look at their papers.
Quite disturbed by it.
Hello! Cant you see that she's pregnant!?
TSK

23rd of May.
Cant wait for tt day t come.
Graduation day!
I can take a day or mayb half a day off!
I'm only looking forward t tt. Haha
Nah. & of cos, to see all my classmates back.
Take lotsa pictures =)

Can finally rot at home tml!
Been out everyday for a wk or so.
I miss rotting at home.

My com is like super lagging nwadays.
Ahh!
Nv encounter it b4 in this com.
I dont like!
Pls dont die on me.

Happy Birthday May babies! (Zi Qing, Ee Liang, Kim Kee, Zhen Peng, Ellice) =)

Alright. I'm feeling crappy tonight. Off t bed!

No title

2007-05-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

I'm running a fever now =(
Feeling warm all over.
Aww.
Just let me get real sick..
I'm tired physically n mentally.

Captured this bright moon the other day. I want t lie on the grass n watch a sky full of stars one day. ^^
-off t bed

My partner

2007-05-06T22:15:00.001+08:00

End of weekends.
Gonna start another week of torture.
I dont like t wake up early!

.....

2007-05-06T14:08:00.000+08:00

Not feeling good at all.

Not.

Fuck it all.

Lousy mood

2007-05-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

Been feeling weak/restless/bad temper/slpy/upset/stress/face-full-of-pimples lately.

.
.
.
.
.
.

When can I be happy again........

It's weekends once again; One last cry

2007-05-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

Work is draining my energy; killing my brain cells.
Reach office, stare at the screen, b4 I know it, it's lunchtime, then off work.
So much things to do.
After work, I will just stone during the long train ride.
Stare blankly at ppl.
Reach home.
Stay in my room.
Surfing blogs.
Din quite bother t online.
Fall aslp while watching tv.
Brain's dead.
Ahhhh..

OH YA! THE OTHER DAY, SOME GUY WANTED T GIVE UP HIS SEAT (ON THE TRAIN) T ME! THE OTHERS AROUND WERE LIKE GIVING ME A STRANGE LOOK. WTH! DO I LOOK LIKE I'M PREGNANT?! =/

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

...

2007-04-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling damn bloody moody nwadays.
Cried n pissed off at slightest things.
Dont know why.
Pms-ing? Maybe.

Just couldnt take it.

Next week gonna b quite stress at work.
Sigh.
Hopefully I dont have t stay back like last friday.

Nice weather today.
Going out t catch some sun soon.
Maybe I'll feel better.
Hopefully.

The unpredictable weather

2007-04-24T19:30:00.000+08:00

It's supposed t b sunny at this time of the year.
But look at the weather.
It's raining almost every noon.
Spoils my day.
Esp when the aircon is directly on top of me, blowing on my head, makes me sick.

Had a really bad flu today, followed by fever.
Darn. It's really v uncomfortable and freezing coldddd in there.

Mr Sun! Pls come out!

Counting down. 3 more days t wkends!

It's not possible...

2007-04-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

Dont understand.
Why so many ppl say I look fierce?!
I'm such a harmless lil girl!
Do I have t smile every min? Even when I'm alone? To suit your eyes?
It's just my face.
Maybe the problem lies w my eyebrows!
YAR! EYEBROWS!
But I trimmed them alr!
It's still tt thick. What can I do?
I'm not fierce! Either am I dao!

And, I'm sick of the food near my company. Gosh. I dont like t rush thru my meal.

I love my mirror. Haha!

-off t bed

Because of you

2007-04-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

Well,

1st week of work.
Ppl pretty friendly n nice.
Nice working environment.
Taking the train towards Jurong East side every morning is so shiok.
You'll get a place t sit (unlike the Marina Bay side) and ya, tt's gd for me cos I dont like being squeezed early in the morning!
There's no need t wear too formal t work.

Bad thing is, I need t wake up at 6.15am every morning! Need t catch the company bus which will be at Jurong East Station on 8.10am.
Not enough sleep makes a grumpy Amelia; throwing tantrum/attitude on my family when I reach home :/
Not much food variety; need t finish up the food in 6-10mins time as the bus will b fetching us back.
Transport fare is VERY taxing. Need t top up my card every 2 days or so. I WANT MY CONCESSION BACK! =(

Overall, I like the working envt! It's like quite happening. They organize outings almost every wk; asked me along t ECP tml. ^^

Met up w an old friend just now. Walking around, sitting at MOS burger n chat. It's great having friends like her. Though we dont meet up often as we are both bz w our own lives, but we are still quite close, can talk abt almost anything. It's hard t find some1 that you can actually bare your heart t. ^^

YEAHS! IT'S THE WEEKENDS! =D

And I know this much is true

Baby, you have become my addiction

I'm so strung out on you

I can barely move...but I like it

Corner with love 轉角*遇到愛

2007-04-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Thanks to WL, I'm currently addicted to this show,

轉角*遇到愛 (Corner with love). =)
Been watching it in Youtube for the whole of this noon. haha.

Will be starting work next week. Kind of excited. Dont know what the environment would be like. And, gonna wake up early every morning. Cant slp late again. :/

Aw. Gonna enjoy b4 I'm stuck to the boring working life.

Have nth more t update. Gonna watch Corner w love! <3

It's a 3D drawing on the floor. Cool isnt it? ^^

Angels brought me here

2007-04-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

My dreams came true

When I found you

My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

♡

Just so you know

2007-04-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

Japanese

2007-04-03T18:45:00.000+08:00

Went for a Japanese shipping company for interview this noon.

Waited for around 25mins. Thinking, why the hell are they taking so long. Tot jap ppl emphasize on punctuality?

Then, I was being led upstairs by the receptionist. The moment she opened the door, I had a shock.

I was told that there might be a big group. BUT! I never expect something like 7 ppl (consists of directors, managers and HR) interviewing me!

Gosh. Are they choosing a CEO or something? I merely applied for a junior executive position.

Sitting alone at the other side of the table, looking at them, smiling, being questioned by each of them, racking my small little brain to think of answers for the situations they gave me, I felt so tiny!! =( I'm just a 20 year old small girl who just graduated.

I've lied too much in interviews! But tt's the way, to sell myself. Haha.

I dont know why. Do I looked cheap t them? Why are they offering me so low?! Whereas my friends who went in, get higher than what they offered me.

Headache.

I'm not okay

2007-03-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

My rotting feet's not okay.
My head's like not okay.
My mood's not okay.

I'm not okay at all.

Boohoohoo

2007-03-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

Everyone seems t have found their temp jobs.
Ahhh.
I'm sick of interviews.
Waste of time and mental taxing.
They will ask all sort of qns

Some qns I encountered:

Tell me more abt yourself.
What have u learnt in this course.
What have you learnt in Maritime Law.
What have you learnt in supply chain management.
What did u did in your attachment.
Which charter party you know.
Name me some clauses in charter party.
What is the functions of B/L
Tell me what do you know about cross trade.
What did I know about Tradenet and Portnet.
Etc etc...

And there's one that need t do maths test in 15mins w/o calculator.

Sigh. I'm like kind of forgotten what I studied and I need quite awhile t recap. Ahh. The stress of what they might ask me in the interviews and whether I can answer is arghhhh..

Ok. I will work hard and look through my notes to recap for wednesday interview. Get it done w once n for all! Wish me luck ^^

One of those days where u feel so lousy

2007-03-19T10:44:00.000+08:00

Quitted my job last wk.
Dont find it suitable.
It's more like a part time admin job.
Do what ppl cant finish.
Accounting data entry n stuffs.
And what's more, the company gonna split into 2. The working envt in there is quite messed up.

I want a job that relates t my course.
Gain some exp.
Not a useless do all the shit job.

So went for interviews.
Got a job in RCL.
And the HR person kinda messed up.
Asked whether I can work on Monday or not.
Then blah, some misunderstandings.
So now, I have t wait for their call for the medical check-up thing b4 working in their company.
I think meanwhile, maybe I will try t look arnd n find others.

I feel so useless. =)

你就是我的天使

保护著我的天使

从此我再没有忧伤

你就是我的天使

给我快乐的天使

甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常

才懂爱才是宝藏

不管世界变得怎黱样

只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖著肩膀

像眼泪依赖著脸庞

你就像天使一样

给我依赖

给我力量

像诗人依赖著月亮

像海豚依赖海洋

你是天使

你是我最初和最后的天堂

No 1 is perfect

2007-03-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

I cant slp.

I'm always affected by how others look at me; what others say me.

I take things quite seriously. And sometimes, questioned myself, am I like what they said?

I dont like these.

Maybe I shouldn't take all these t heart. I am who I am. I dont need t change t suit others.

I dont like people who accuse me for whom I am not. I will get so frustrated over tt matter.

Gah! Amelia! Dont get affected by what ppl said! Be youself!

Ahhh. Sorry for all the ranting. I'm trying t vent everything out. Not gd t keep all those shit in.

Nights.

I need sth else.

Come w me

2007-03-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

You don't have to wait, I can ease yo pain
You don't have to be left out in the rain
Don't you say you fed up, tired of the love
whatever you need, I got it, Come with me
You don't have to stay up, layin by the phone
You don't have to ever feel like you're alone
Don't you say you're fed up, tired of love
whatever you need, I got it, come with me.

My shopping place-Isetan

2007-03-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

I think my new shopping place would be Isetan.
Sigh.
Been shopping around the whole day today.
Didnt see anything I like.
But I just bought them for the sake of wearing t work.
I need more tops.
Can I wear knee length pants t work? I bought them today. But do not know whether it is appropriate not. Ahhh.
Spent lotsa moolahs even before I work.
Bad. Bad.

Off for a shower. My legs r hurting quite badly.

Shop for office wear

2007-03-03T01:27:00.000+08:00

I dont like t shop for office wear.
I dont like t wear those office clothes.
I dont want t spend $$ on things I dont like.
I'm totally broke now and yet I haven settle the clothes and shoes yet.

So frustrating t shop for those stuffs.
I want t wear my t shirts n skirts!

Results out this coming wed. Kinda worried. Hope I can clear everything :/

Thanks pika pw jes el n others for the bag ^^
can use tt bag for work.
thanks girls!
hugs

Got a job

2007-02-28T17:09:00.000+08:00

Went down for an interview early in the morning and yea, I got the job.
I'm a crew administrator; in charge of the seafarer's wages n blah blah.
She wanted me t start work tml. But I pushed it t next monday.

Sigh. I dont want t work yet! Haven finish enjoying. But on the other hand, working means money rolling in soon. Yups! I'm darn broke now. I spent half of my ang pao money on bills n train concession :/ . The other half should be spend on my office wear, shoes and bag. My wardrobe consists mostly on T-shirts only! Tsk.

Cx starting work on Monday too! She's in the same company as me. Haha. Dont know it's a gd thing or bad thing. Hmms. But we are in different dept, so tt's quite alright.

I'm tired. Till then~

If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world

& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

If I could be sweet (sorry boy)
I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

Irreplaceable

2007-02-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

So go ahead and get gone

Call up that chick, and see if shes home

Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know

What did you thinkI was putting you out for?

Because you was untrue

Rolling her around in the car that I bought you

Baby, drop them keys

Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

我可以

2007-02-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

寄　没有地址的信
这样的情绪　有种距离你　放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情　能不能说给我听

雨　下得好安静
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景　有我爱你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你

...

2007-02-21T01:59:00.000+08:00

Tsk. I feel so anti social. Hate myself for tt. Just not comfortable with big group of new ppl. ahh. Nvm. Will try t change.

Past few days wasnt really tt great. Tired. Flu. Quite meaningless la. Cos I got t meet the same relatives for the past 2 days. And yars. They meeting up again for gathering today n sat. And nahs, I'm nt gg. Bored. At least I gt t meet tt silly boy these 2 days..

Anw, presenting t u my small cous, Manuwell!

Hehe. Such a sweetheart! 5 months old. slping on my bed! Looks like china boy. chubby n cute =D

And Ivan's camp kitten. ^^ forgt t upload tt time.

AND! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESALINE! :P

Happy New Year! ; Happy 300th Post!

2007-02-18T01:56:00.000+08:00

Haha! Happy New Year!

It's 1.58am now n boohoo. I'm alone at home! My fren just went back and my family's at the temple. Hmms. Quite scary t be alone at home at this hour. :/ And the air smell of smoke! Mum burned those joss sticks before she went off.

Just finished doing manicure n pedicure? haha. yars! Fren helped me do. Quite nt bad la uh.

I think I will gain like 2-3kgs these few days with all the great food around! Ahhh! Help!

The atmosphere this year is like quite different? I dont have any cny mood unlike the past years. hmms. And I didnt really get new clothes this time!

Lyl going back aussie land soon. Haven meet up with the girls for a darn long time. Think EL went back to malaysia alr. :/

Lala. Random post.

Shall watch tv while waiting for them~ ^^

Interviews

2007-02-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

I dont dare t send out my resume anymore! for now la.

I sent them out on mon and they called me the next day for interview!

Had interview with Sembawang kimtrans yest. And yar, it's nt in sembawang. It's somewhere inside boonlay la. Was darn scared. Lucky HQ accompanied me. So yars. The person quite friendly.

Another company called me and arranged an interview on the same day. That lady quite friendly too. Talk cock with me n stuffs. Haha. And she arranged the operation manager t talk t me about the post. But, I can tell that the manager dont quite like me la. Cos his dept all guys and so yars. shant go into details.

Received a reply from Sembawang Kimtrans on that same day. They offered me the job. But I rejected it. The place is too far!

Sing w my poly mates after the interview. ^^ Emo songs made me moody. So yars, had fun w them. Crazy ppl.

okays. Im so lazy t continue nw.

Burnt

2007-02-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

Went suntanning the other day.

And now, horrible sunburnt.

My tummy area's still sore.

My face is peeling a lil. Looks like I'm having some skin disease or something :/ It's darn ugly. Sigh. My face!!!!!!! ahhhh *horrified* =(

Class BBQ that day ^^

Last bbq gathering

2007-02-01T16:37:00.000+08:00

Went to my class bbq yesterday
Cx wasnt there
Siti went off halfway to watch soccer match
Two of my closest frens nt w me =(

But, it was quite alright and better than the last time.

Cos, more food this time! Haha.

Crapped around with the guys. Guess this would be the last time seeing them as they will be going army soon

Zhi wei n asri came too! ^^ Though we've been keeping in touch w each other every now and then, but it's been 2 yrs since I last saw Zw. Haha. And they made fun of us, as usual. :/

Heard that some of the girls have started working already. Wow. That's fast. We have just finished our paper last friday and I wanted to enjoy 1st. But after seeing how hardworking they are, I've worked out my resume and send it out to companies for the whole of this afternoon. Sigh. Hope I can start work by March.

I dont want t work; dont want t study either. I just want t nua n play.

I'm afraid that I might get bullied at work.

I'm afraid that I might fail one of the papers.

Ahhh!

Okays. Suntanning w my ger darling tml! Hope the weather is good and we can have nice tan color! Gonna do some cny shopping as well!

Bbq photos will b up when siti send me!

Did some spring cleaning and I was dead tired after that. I finally threw away the old CPU (that damn thing that costs me so much for repairs every now n then)! And my mirror is finally back t the full length mirror once again cos I've cleared those rubbish that's stacking up on the floor. Tsk tsk. Sense of satisfaction. ^^

End off w my zi lian pic ^^

My Love

2007-01-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

Cuz if you only knew what I felt for you.
You would've held on tighter.
Fought a lil harder.
Been a lil smarter.
And now you're gonna miss my love.

...

2007-01-29T21:59:00.000+08:00

the places we went..
the things we did..
the stuffs we said..

those memories we shared..

And seeing you become like this..

I know I shouldn't be thinking abt tt.

I fucking hate you for what you are now

Why should I give a damn about you

But still, it hurts.

Without You - Kiss

2007-01-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

As I sit here and think about all that I'm missing, all that I'm missing

About everything that I could ever ask for, but you

All the past time we spent wondering how you've been, wondering how you've been

But the more that you're on mind I'm just lonely and blue, cant you see

Why can't you be with me to hold me tight

Just being with you will make everything better and bright

I stay up all night remembering what we had

And I can't sleep a wink cause thinking of you makes me sad

I can't seem to shake you off my mind

Just wanna go back in time to just press rewind

I wanna have you by my side

You always make it right

And without you my heart starts to cry

How will I ever go on
How will I stay strong
Do you see without you my soul dies

You're all that I want

You're all that I need

So why don't you come and be with me

woohoo!

2007-01-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

This is the day!
End of my school life!
So happy!

3yrs. Over in the blink of an eye.

Shall relax all I could..
Play all I want..
Meet out with my friends..
Enjoy life to the fullest..

^^

Lala. I'm a happy girl now!

Last day of school.

After paper, went out with the foreigner grp t eat sing drink play

Had fun w them. Crazy bunch of ppl ^^

I guess this would be the last time I will be seeing most of them cos they will be going back for cny and wont be joining us for the last bbq gathering this coming wed. =(

Will miss those ppl!

Alright. Time t start on my resume and send them out! haha

ponders

2007-01-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

Cx says I v particular abt how ppl talk and react.

Haha. Maybe I am. I judge ppl by the way they talk and yeah, it gives me the impression on what kind of person they are. But sometimes, I might be wrong.

I'm quiet, easy going and smiling all the time, but i'm no pushover. ^^

And woooo! 1 last paper n I wont be going school anymore! *jumps around* (if I pass all my modules lar :/)

@$%^^@!

2007-01-23T11:58:00.000+08:00

Paper's at 330.

The feeling and mental torture from now till 330 sucks.

Loads of stuffs to memorize and yet, I haven finish memorizing them.

Lack of sleep.

Pimples popping out.

Construction going on dwnstairs.

Feeling restless.

Ahh. Everything just sucks!

Why

2007-01-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

I'm disgusted.

Why do I still let him affect me?

The final week

2007-01-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

This is it. 1 last week n that's the end of my tertiary life.

4 more papers.

Ahhh.

I can feel the stress coming up.

Anyhoo, bro just came back from taiwan.

Bought loadsa cup noodles! Like 10 over bowls of them?

Quite good, but I find it too salty. Maybe I added too lil water. Hah.

And there's real beef inside!

stickwitu

2007-01-20T16:35:00.000+08:00

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away I know
I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

(Hey)Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

I don't want to go another
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me

And I say
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

Goodbye long hair

2007-01-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hair snipped off.

Heartpain.

Actually, it's not that short. But I've been wanting to keep long hair since few yrs back n bah!
Wanted to trim the ends, end up cutting some inches off. =(

Hmmms. 3rd post of the day!

So fat BUT soooooo weak

2007-01-18T16:21:00.000+08:00

Having headaches these few days.

Dont feel good at all.

Ask mummy to cook some tonic for me.

Ended up cant slp at night, headache worsen. :/

Oh god. Pls give me good health! My exams' coming!

I dont like being so weak.

Boohoohoo

Hair loss

2007-01-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

At the rate my hair is dropping everyday, I'm gonna visit Yun Nam very soon. :/

The nick; sourness in the air

2007-01-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling sore inside.

Enough said.

disappointed

2007-01-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

i'm utterly disppointed.

===================

Met jas for dinner just now. His bf came too.

n blah blah.
KFC dinner.
Bf bought hammies.
Found poor blind lost kitten.
Tried to find mummy cat but cant find.
Took cab back.
Home sweet home.

New born kitten.

Mum asked from someone (monk or smth) abt my life this year. N it's quite bad. Health not good too. Aw man. Hope it's not true.

I still haven recover. My throat still hurts. :/

Sometimes I wish that there's someone with me. I dont like being alone.

Long lost friend

2007-01-14T15:30:00.000+08:00

Received a package from Mr Postman the other day.

It's from Pat! My pri sch bestfren. ^^ Lost contact w her for a few years. Well, not really lost contact. I've got her msn, but we seldom talk. She's now in Aussie land studying.

And she got me this!

A cute aussie koala bear!

So touched. Have not seen her for a few years alr and she still rmbs me.

^^ Makes my day!

:/

2007-01-11T09:52:00.000+08:00

I'm sick.

Down w fever n sore throat. :/

And exam at 3 later.

Sigh.

I'm so dead.

This is the result of last min study.

Ahhhhhh!!

movie marathon?

2007-01-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

yes! movie marathon! 2 movies in a row!

Watched Deathnote 2 yesterday.

Not really that great. Twist here n there. Long=Butt pain.

Night at the Museum today!

It's hilarious la! Interesting too! Better than DN2! :D

Hmms. Gonna exams soon. How?!

Gt a number of girls in my class went for some interviews and sent out their resumes alr.

Today a lecturer asked my group whether we've gone for any interview.

We shook our heads, feeling a bit ashamed. :/

Haven even start writing my resume la! I dont really know how to write. :/ I thought of finding job maybe at the end of feb or march, after cny. But I think, I should really start writing my resume and send to various companies soon! At least by this month?

I dont want to look for ship agency kinda job. Maybe insurance or sales n purchase will be interesting? My attachment company's recruiting people. Maybe I should give it a try.

And ppl. Dont try peeling those wood from under the wooden tables; fastfood or kopitiam kind. Worms/termites might drop on your laps!

I was being itchy finger this noon, n I started to pull those wood from under the table in my sch's mac. Waaaa! The worms/termites started falling dwn! Lucky my bag was on my lap. And I threw the bag aside :/ Till my fren came n brushed them off for me. Yucks man! Imagine you eating, and under the table, there's white creatures crawling! ah!

K. Shall end here

Pissed

2007-01-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

School reopens tml. Time to exercise my brain cells once again. Well, in another 3 more weeks, I'm gonna leave my tertiary life. Good. Away from those nasty people. Quite contradicting eh. I dont like working life and on the other hand, I cant wait to get my ass out of poly. Hah.

People changes like weather. I dont understand.

我不喜欢看人家的脸色去做东西。不喜欢。

Happy New Year!

2007-01-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year ppl!

hmms. nye was spent watching the fireworks then ton the night with my dearies.

came back home. slept the whole day. sick for the last 2 days. :/

i guess sooner or later, my nose will drop 1 day. sigh. It's getting worse these days.

I love fireworks! :D

Pretty pretty! But it's like so far away. Next yr. Next yr i shall book a room with the girls n enjoy~! :D

last post of the year

2006-12-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

31/12/2006

2006 is coming to an end!

let see what happened to me this year..

hmmms. basically nth much happened.

Going for lessons. Hols. Working. School. FYP.

School's the same. Working during the hols tt time was fun. FYP was a disaster. N swallowing my unhappiness n anger to myself, which i always did. :/

cant rmb any happening events. hahaha. everything's been the same n dull.

the only thing that has impact on me is i got dumped! :/

well, thanks for the sweet memories you gave me; making me so happy, so loved.

thanks for being there when i needed ppl most.

thanks for making me realize that i still have so many friends around me, comforting me.

thanks for waking me up. im much more mature than the past. (can i say tt? ^^)

yups! so basically, i have to let go and move on with life! what's the point of crying over the past? 旧的不去，新的不来。哈哈

2007.

I wish my last term exam in poly can fare well.

Be more out spoken.

Be more firm with my decision. In other words, dont be too soft hearted!

Good career.

Save money for my part time studies.

Get a car license.

Dont trust ppl too easily.

More disciplined.

People around me to be healthy!

N of cos, lose weight la. been saying this for years. :D

Happy New Year ppl!

get down to work

2006-12-29T13:12:00.000+08:00

lala. 29th of dec. left 1 more wk of hols! have 2 more projects in hand. din touch any of them as im still in the festive mood. hah. shall get down to work soon.

1 more month n i'll end my poly life. quite fast ehs. dont know what will happen after i finish school. should i wait till after cny then find a job? or work 1st? wad kind of job shld i look for? :/ 2007. working life. gonna work my ass off for the next 20-30yrs or so. sigh. not quite looking forward to it. but yeahs, tt's life.

random thoughts.

alright. shall get back to slp now. darn slpy.

Emo

2006-12-24T04:11:00.000+08:00

Feeling so emotional now.

Dont know why. Kept thinking abt you these few days.

Why we ended up like this.

Why it always happen to me.

Why. Why it always happen to me

Still dont believe it.

Though I'm always smiling arnd, but im still feeling darn pain.

Hated myself for loving you too much.

Hated myself for being so serious in this relationship.

Hated myself for cant letting it go.

So many ppl ask why I still put our picture in my wallet. It's simply cos I cant bear to take it out.

....

Glad t know tt u r much happier now. But do you know hw much pain u have inflicted on me?

Bah. Been such a fool.

I thought i have got over you.

2006-12-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

Last night, couldn't sleep.

Browsed through all the pictures we took.

I cried.

Ahhhh. All those beautiful memories. =) I miss them so much.

人总是等到失去后才懂得珍惜

P/s: I'm still not over you.

Rain Rain go away

2006-12-20T01:38:00.000+08:00

It's been raining since sunday? Kinda sucks. Cant go out. Intend to tan during my hols. but look. how to tan in this end of weather. sulks. However, the weather's good for lazing around at home. =D

I want to go shopping! I want to buy new phone! Find my phone quite lok kok la. Deciding between nokia 7390 n sony ericsson w850i. Im more on the nokia side, but it seems like most of my frens support SE huh. Is it really better? Haha. Had a k700i last time and it kinda sucks. Hang like crazy.

Xmas is coming~ Rain rain go away!

人好现实
好可怕

Bad Dreams

2006-12-13T15:28:00.000+08:00

They are terrifying.

the 11th of every month

2006-12-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today's the 11th.
For the past 1 year plus, I've been sending msg to the certain someone on this day, wishing him happy anniversary.
I kept every anniversary smses.
I look at them occasionally; smiling to myself ; n crying silently.
The last anniversary msg, was a v short n unhappy 1.

I wish that I can still wait for 0000hr and msg u "Happy 18th month Sweetheart".
I wish that I can still receive those sweet smses from you.

..........

Today's supposed to be our 18th month together.
1.5years.
It's not that long ; not short either.
I still cant let it go.

So painful.

Birthday; Pictures

2006-12-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

Alright. Since I've nth to do now. I'm gonna blog!

1st Dec

Went out with Gerlynn darling. So long nv see her alr! I went school early in the morning then didnt have time to wear nice nice lar. Haha. And you know what! She wore heels! She's already 170cm tall and with the heels, I feel so small. She's my niece btw. But same age as me. Why cant I grow taller too! :/

Pretty pretty girl. Oh! I love orchard xmas mushrooms too! So cute!

5th Dec

Meet up with Shawn after school. Another tall fella. 183cm! I'm a dwarf again. He wanted to bring me eat chocolate fondue. He says chocolate makes ppl happy! haha. But after eating subway, was damn full alr. So we went Haagen Dazs to share a bowl of ice cream. Hmms, after that made him accompany me to tpy to take the skirts from pw. =) Sorry dearie pw for troubling you!

Came home. Saw a present on my tv set. Tore open the wrapper and ta dah! Anna Sui =) Pestered my brother to get me perfume for present. He said he's not buying perfume for me as it's not practical. But in the end, he still get me that. =D But the smell is not as strong as my other perfumes. Need to spray a lot to have the smell. Hmmms.

I Love Perfumes! Shall get more next time when I have money :)

6th Dec

My birthday! Alright. I think this birthday kinda sucks. I felt so upset that few days.

Received a couple of smses at midnight. Kind of touched that they still rmb my bday. Haha. I remembered tt time I was on the phone with ivan, crying. Sigh :/ . Hmmm. My dad so cute lar! Around 12am, I was walking to the kitchen to get my charger, I saw him standing near the clock and Caller ID. I asked him what happened. He asked me go drink water and stuffs. Then when I'm done, he rushed to me, shaked my hand n gave me ang bao! =) He was waiting till 12am sharp to wish me. =D So sweet. These few years I always do that to him on his birthday. Haha. So heart warming.

After that I do my fyp till 2plus 3.

Woke up early in the morning to prepare for my fyp presentation which is at 1630. Fyp presentation during birthday! That's quite sucky lar. Oh yar! My mum woke up early to cook mian xian for me! =D So sweet! Tt day is my chinese birthday as well. I heard from my fren that every 20 years, chinese n english birthday falls on the same day. Is it? Never heard of that before.

Ai Xin mian xian with 2 eggs! =D

I prefer watery eggs than hard boiled ones. But she say cannot make the eggs broken. Haha. So yeahs. Swallowed half of each for the sake of it and went to prepare to go school!

Did not take any picture of me wearing formal that day. But I took one the day b4 while trying out the outfit. Want to thank Ellice for lending me the skirt and Pei Wen for bringing it down for me!

Okie lar. My room v messy. haha. wear like tt makes me look skinnier lehs. i like i like. hahaha.

Feels weird wearing formal. So uneasy in the train. But luckily, got 1 fren with me. So quite alright. Went to the library to prepare for my script again as smth cropped up. N 2 hours later, my team members came. Supposed to meet at 12! But they came late! Anw, my fren bought me roses! =D I think guy gives girl flowers on special days is quite sweet. =) That brightened up my day!

Hahaha. I know this picture quite disgusting. Dont puke.

Then it's 1630. Went in the room. And yeahs, everyone was so nervous. I practically read everything from the script! Cos when I saw them, I dont know what to say. They commented that we never make any eye contacts with them which is quite bad. N blah blah. Lots of comments. Overall it's alright.

I'm glad FYP is over!!

After that, changed and went out with cx n her fren. Cx was quite affected by what the examiner told her lar. So yeah, spoiled the mood to go out. Went to NYDC to have our dinner. The baked rice, mud pie and stuffs not bad. Damn full. Then we proceed to Cheers at cine, bought a few drinks, n went up to kbox.

That cx taught me how to play some dice thing. Some lying game. The loser must drink. So basically, I'm always losing lar! My lying skills kind of sucks. Haha. So yeah. Hot. Dizzy.

Sing n sing. Take pictures. The sleeveless girl is Cx. The other one is Shu min I think. Cant really rmb her name.

Narcissist. =D

Earlier ivan asked me out, so I asked him to join us. The girls went off around 1am. I dont want to go home yet. Then he acc me sing till I'm tired. Reached home 3plus 4, bathed, n peng on my bed. Oh ya, the kbox bill kinda shocked me.

Wanted to ask more ppl out on this day. But most of them have school or having their exams. So yeahs, quite sian. Hmms. Cx asked me earlier where I want to go n what I want to do on my birthday. I told her my dream bday is to have a guy, bringing me to the beach at night. He have make some words using candles and light it up, surprising me. Hehehe. So drama. But that's what girls will wish for right? haha.

Realised I dont have any cake on that day. No candles. Did not make any wish this year. Quite sad. BUT, do wishes come true? I wished for smth every year. Doesnt work.

7th Dec

My self proclaimed holiday! haha. Pon school that day. Woke up in the noon. Mum told me that my primary sch fren bought me a cake yesterday but I was not at home. Went to the fridge n ta dah! It's a xmas log cake! No candles for me to blow =( hahaha. She so cute lar. She wrote in the card saying that bday n xmas shun bian celebrate together. That's why she bought a log cake for me. Haha.

Quite pretty. But it's not choc flavour! haha. It's nice anw.

Surfed the net awhile n went out to meet jeremy for dinner.

8th Dec

I forgot we are supposed to go to the Supreme Court during law lesson that day. Wear till quite lok kok. Haha. N yeahs. Went to the new building. Nth much there. I wanted to go in hear some session. But we went quite late tt day. Then there isnt any hearings (or whatever it's called). Took some pictures.

I think the old building (in the picture) is so much nicer than the new one lar. The new one looks like some erm, shopping centre? So many escalators! The guys in the picture are always bullying me! Pinching my fats, hitting my head! Mean ppl. Haha

N yeahs! That's how I spent this past few days!

Cx n me kinda addicted to kbox alr. Haha. We intend to pon noon lessons next tues to sing! =D

1 more week of school and it's holidays! =D Gonna meet up with my dearies next wk! Jia you for the tests!

Alright! long long n boring post! The end! =D

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2006-12-07T04:29:00.000+08:00

Did a test while waiting for my hair to dry

I'm so bloody nice k! wahahaha. k la. hair almost drying. had a long day. cannot tahan. i'm gonna slp now! upload pictures soon!

2006-12-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

心里有一段伤痕
伤得好深
躲开有你的地方
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己

想让伤痕填补你遗留下来的空间，
发现怎样都不能填满对你的想念的空间，
后来才发现你一直都在我心理，只是在你心理的已经不是我了

Sigh

2006-11-30T17:00:00.000+08:00

Got back some of my papers, all poorly done. sigh. I can only blame myself for that cos I din really study much that time. Ah! I must do better next term!

It's the xmas seasons! Town's decorated with all the beautiful beautiful lights. So pretty! Went out with ZhenPeng that day, watched the happy feet n took quite a number of pictures in town! Haha. Been 2 years since I last saw him? Yeahs. Same pattern. Like to suan me.

Look at his stupid face

Been spending quite a lot this month. Xmas season=lotsa promotions. Cant control myself!! haha

Going out with Gerlynn darling tml! =D Havent seen her since CNY?

N yeahs! Lyl coming back to Sg tml! =D I miss my sec sch friends. Have not seen them for quite awhile. But I guess they will be having their exams the following weeks if I'm not wrong. Jia you! =)

Hotmail

2006-11-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

There's seriously something wrong with my com man. I cant log in my hotmail! This happens once in awhile. Why? Now I can only check my mail in school. So troublesome. N I cant see pictures on blogs also! Oh. Tell me. What's wrong with it.

I was lying down on my bed last night, looking through all the photos and anniversary messages. Thinking of the happy times we had. I miss going all those places we always go. I miss doing stupid things with you. Wondering how have you been. I din pick up your calls cos everytime when we talk, we will end up quarrelling. I dont want that to happen. I told myself not to reply your msgs, but in the end, I still did. End up, you were angry cos I logged in your acct. I'm scared. I hate this feeling. I still cant let it go. I'm trying v hard to. And today, you called. I used to wait for your calls everyday. Used to talk to you every night. Now, I can only look at my phone flashing "Benedict calling" and wait for you to put down. I so wanted to pick it up. I so wanted to answer, "Hello darling ah." But no. It wont happen anymore. Now I'd leave you. I guess there's no point to clarify or say anymore things. Why make both of us so miserable? You can lead your own life. More freedom, more time for yourself. Dont have to bother about how i feel, how am i doing. =)

....

2006-11-25T17:36:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Raining saturday. Nice cosy weather at home.

Missed out the date with my dearies yesterday cos of the fever n flu =( so long nv see them alr. They went Manhattan eat somemore. I want eat i want eat!! Bring me next time! =D

Hmms. So my fyp report is sorta settled alr, but the outcome is like quite shitty. Now only need to prepare the power point slides for the presentation. And my group is scheduled on 6th! haha. Happy. Cos I want to get it done n over soon. But quite scary lar. I scared I dont know how to answer their questions. =S

Sigh.......